the life of st. dako

okay so Emalee asked me to do 1 - 56 and I wanted to die but I did it so…

I hate you.

1: straight

2: writing essays, enjoying my writing and thinking it’s decent, being tolerant of stupid people

3: yours, bb gurl ;) uhhhhh but really, f, Nadine’s. sadface.

4: v-day this year.

5: I think I’m terribad at everything, really.

6: some fellow physics majors and a few others here, one or two people back home.

7: 1984 by George Orwell

8: ignorance, intolerance, stupidity, drug-users

9: I don’t have just one, but most are nerdy physics majors like myself.

10: MANATEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS <3

11: see a few lines above

12: real break-up: drifted. sorta-real breakup: she didn’t want a relationship.

13: studied, tumbl’d a bit, nothing special

14: teaching myself how to play six instruments in a wide variety of genres, playing concerts (even if they were just at the school!), playing with Orchestral Zeppelin

15: I don’t want to say I dislike her, but she broke my heart, and that’s a pretty good enough description

16: anything by Childish Gambino (mainly his “All of the Lights” remix)

17: probably on my bed sometime last month.

18: smart, good at math, interested in physics, good body (of course).

19: 10 dogs, 2 guinea pigs, 1 skinny pig, 2 mice, 2 birds (fuck those birds god dammit)

20: chocolate, mmm.

21: on a stage or in a lab.

22: I don’t think things are mean usually, sometimes they just piss me off, for example, calling me close-minded when it comes to music. hooooooooooooooly shit that fucking annoys me.

23: Burlington and Waterloo.

24: you’re willing to always be there for me, mainly physically (cuddling!)

25: if I do get free tuition from a status card then I’ll do my BSc in physics, then a BMath in pure math, then grad school for physics or engineering. if I don’t get free tuition, same plan, just without the BMath.

26: whether or not I should try getting back together with her after the summer.

27: studying for my exams on saturday.

28: either a theoretical particle physicist, experimental particle physicist, something at Tesla Motors or sustainable energy engineer.

29: can’t really think of anything too embarrassing.

30: math skills, height

31: pay off my schooling and help my parents

32: I don’t like boys, except for Patrick Monahan and Heath Saraceno <3

33: I’m nice I guess. but I have a nice ass! also my hair is almost like Pat Monahan’s :D

34: people who accept the benefits of advancements in technology and medicine that science has given us but not accept evolution or the big bang model. science is a fucking package deal.

35: Rush twice, Senses Fail, Bayside, Alice Cooper, some random underground bands, no one else really fancy.

36: repeat

37: 1 boy

38: VIDEO GAMES

39: music I guess? music theory mostly. I understand a lot of more complex jazz stuff (need to learn Dorians though). math, sort of.

40: I haven’t really experienced anything in person besides a best friend laying on the ground puking everywhere after she hit her head while drinking (she had to be taken to the hospital). but my friend’s suicide, that was kind of a BIG deal.

41: Palo Alto, CA to work at Tesla.

42: maybe simply “I love you” for the first real time.

43: I’m stressed and upset I’m not doing better in my classes and this university is fucking insane, but I’m in a good spot.

44: “All the Shine” by Childish Gambino.

45: no siblings

46: repeat

47: JAZZ EXAM FFFFFFF

48: her

49: pretty good I guess.

50: “that was a wicked show, you kicked ass”

51: “I love you”

52: “i meant on campus. stupid T9”

53: repeat? not sure. I dislike how I’m not as good as I used to be in terms of music.

54: normally: smart, nice body, plays video games, interested in the same stuff as me. bedroom: neck or chest-kissing (stupid question)

55: “you’re so close-minded” or “evolution is just a theory” or “math is useless”

56: how fucking hard they make it and the fact that we have lab exams. FFFUUUU

I still hate you